"Illusion is the first of all pleasures."

-Oscar Wilde

What am I doing? 

I was lamenting over my inability to buy anything off Asos when I ended up on Nasty Gal. 

I can't remember why as I've transferred from dejected to depressed.

Why do you do this to me, Jeffrey Campbell?
I may have to start begging for an early birthday present.
Also on the wish list - sage green nail polish, revlon candy-scented polish, UO lace or pearl collars, topshop canvas bag. 

I'm almost done rewatching CCS...
I'm not ready to let go of Syaoran or Sakura yet! :(

Open Up My Window...

My head floats out the door.

Shocking, my immune system has failed me again. 

I did a Dew Drop, spur-of-the-moment tarot reading yesterday. 

Two of Swords.
Interpretations focus on opposing choices or split decisions.
That's for sure.
The card advises to stop going against the current but how am I supposed to just GO with the blows life keeps throwing at me?

I am not happy. Not by a long shot.

No one else around
And a shimmer takes my eye
I lift my head
I'm blinded by the sky

Feel my weight in front
Following the sound
It moves away so fast
I fall down to the ground

LOL such a waste of time...

Happy Birthday, Kid. 

カードキャプターさくら

Aitai na aenai na setsunai na
Kono kimochi
Ienai no iitai no
Chansu nogashite bakari. 

-Catch You Catch Me

Went downtown with Allena today to catch more of the Olympic fever. :)

We went to Candy Aisle and binged on Pina Colada honey sips, sour watermelons, and Mike&Ike's. Ended up spending pretty much the whole day in Chapters, HMV, and UO. 

My feet kill from trekking around in Deena and Ozzy wedges. Stupid idea.

I came home and devoured Parisian macaroons while watching Cardcaptor Sakura on imeem. 

I was tempted to buy The Fashion Questionnare by Michael Specter but considering my budget, I'm opting for the actual questionnaire instead:

Your symbol of high fashion: Classy heels. Take your kitten shit up out of here.  

Your favorite fabric: Chiffon! So sue me. 

Your favorite colour: Black or navy for clothing.

The collection you’ll never forget: Hard to pick... Marchesa Spring 2009 RTW or Dior Spring 2009 Couture

The style you most dislike: Uggs + Tights as Pants + TNA Headbands. 

Your favorite fashion photographer: Ellen von Unwerth. 

Your favorite model: Too difficult! Sasha Pivovarova, Daul Kim, or Karlie Kloss. Typical, I know I know. Oh and Freja Beha. 

Your shoe/shoe designer fetish: Marni. Or maaaaaybe Jeffrey Campbell.  

Your favorite fashion accessory: Rings. 

Your ideal bag: Chanel (you know exactly which one I'm talking about)

The most creative designer: Alexander McQueen, RIP. 

The most timeless designer: Chanel.

Your favorite designer: Oh god... Marchesa (Georgina & Keren)

Your favorite decade fashion: 20's or 40's!

Your contemporary muse of inspiration: Gaga, Olsen twins, Alexa Chung.

Your historical muse icon: Gabrielle "Coco" Chanel. 

The “look” you prefer for man: Think Ashley Stymest or Cole Mohr. 

The “look” you prefer for woman: Anything that isn't trashy (read: anything worn by Ke$ha). 

The fashion faux pas you can tolerate most: Tacky sweaters.

The fashion faux pas you can tolerate least: UGGS. 

What is your present state of mind? Umm. Content?

Your fashion motto: “Elegance is not the prerogative of those who have just escaped from adolescence, but of those who have already taken possession of their future.” --Coco Chanel. 

Feb.16,2010, 11:13 p.m.

FUCK.

Bitch Look at Me Now (Except not.)

Fucking Valentine's Day. 

P.S. 新年快樂!

You Don't Seem to Know or Seem to Care What Your Heart is For

I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late
I'm already torn

Sick again.
I'm so tired of my immune system crapping out on me. Looks like another night of vitamins, green tea, and vanilla incense is ahead of me. 

I'm also emotionally drained from the drama of the past two weeks. No matter where I was, I couldn't escape it. Even now, it's plaguing me. For fear of going on an eighth-grade-esque rant on "putting on my happy face," I won't delve too much into this. 

I'm feeling slightly more optimistic after a fairly accurate tarot reading last night. Hopefully things will start looking up. 

I was going to call to make an appointment to get the cutest Chanel deco nails until I found out the price... 

My Results According to Carl Jung.

ENFP - "Journalist". Uncanny sense of the motivations of others. Life is an exciting drama. 8.1% of total population.

Free Jung Personality Test (similar to Myers-Briggs/MBTI)

A couple of years and I'm a silhouette.

Whoa, I'm losing hope
There's a hole in my heart
That's been cut out of stone
Whoa, cold comes cold goes
Could you fill this hole?
Cause I can't do it alone

This past weekend wasn't the best. 

I guess the last few have been pretty crazy but fun so this one majorly paled in comparison. >< 

Friday we were supposed to go to bubble tea but some shit went down and all this unnecessary drama happened so almost everyone bailed. Then all of a sudden, everyone was coming again and like 10 of us ended up at Aji Taro's. I couldn't stop laughing at everything. 

Max: If men had babies in their testicles, people could only have two kids. It would stop all these chinese people from having so many fucking kids. Then we wouldn't have to learn about them in school and see pictures of them with bugs all over their face.

---

Antonio: I know what 'under the table' means, but I wouldn't do it for food!

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Me: That's so ugly.
Rick: Your face is ugly.
Me: Wow thanks.
Rick: Just kidding. You're pretty.
*Everyone's quiet*
Me: ...Shit just got awkward. 

We were all kind of out of it. Rick took one hit and couldn't stop puking XD
The drama didn't really end though and the night just sort of ended on bad terms. Sucks. 
The next day, it had sort of blown over but I was in a shit mood and everything felt horrible.  We went to Twinkle and I finally tried the All-Star at Sky (bubble tea with stars!) so that cheered me up a bit. Random secret-telling with AJ made me feel better too :) 

Today's exams were polar opposites. English was awful; worst essays I've ever written. Chem was pretty easy. 

I can't wait for Friday! All-nighter at the theatre; it's gonna be amazing. :D 
If drama ruins this weekend too, I'm gonna flip a shit. 

Last Name Ever, First Name Greatest

I was so exhausted at school today, I fell asleep in religion and woke up with my desk all wet. :S 

Friday night was fun times, except I never accomplished my goal of ordering bubble tea with stars in it... I couldn't understand the menu, so I ended up with two Pinnochios. I'm still waiting to find out what the fuck they are. 

The power was out at school yesterday so we had the day off. 
I went for all you can eat sushi then went to watch Sherlock Holmes.

I just wish it was the weekend again. 

What I've Got's Full Stock of Thoughts and Dreams That Scatter.

Went to Aberdeen today to try and find a Hello Kitty blackberry case and failed miserably.

Quite dejected, I marched on to Landsdowne to pick up some ink cartridges and stumbled across a plain black case. Realizing I could load that fucker up with tacky keychains, I made the purchase and happily attached Totoro's and Gloomy Bears at my leisure :3

I'm really stressed out about my Lady Gaga canvases; the set of three is due next Monday. We've had since mid-December and I'm not even done my second one. Ahhhhh STRESS! 

My shoes are literally falling apart and it's hindering my balance even more than my regular level of clumsiness. 

Can't stop listening to Hall & Oates' "You Make My Dreams." It just reminds me of Joseph Gordon-Levitt. CUTE. 

There's a Place Downtown Where the Freaks All Come Around...

Decided to start another blog because I feel like the tumblr is more visual arts and less expressive in the literary sense. 

Missed school today and had far too much time to myself. 
Consequently, I was in a bad mood the majority of the day. 

The pressures of procrastination are hitting me hard right now but I just can't face school work. 9:53 p.m. seems like just as good a time as any to release electronic diarrhea from my fingertips to the weathered and worn keys to the internet. 

My friend's birthday party's on Friday then I think I'm gonna hit Twinkle after for some literally star-filled BBT with the usual suspects. :) 

Late night sushi outings are actually amazing. 
I apparently can't order coke. 

"Pass me those egg things." 
"It's yam."

I guess it's time to face the unavoidable.

With all the mental health days I've been taking, I've missed more than a half a month of school combined... Oh my.